I had a great weekend. My best friend since like kindergarten came to see me at school and we had a great time. I got sick but it didn't reflect poorly on my weekend at all. I miss Shannon, though It was kind of like I had a best friend as a roommate and it was very cool, and now I want a roommate. Kris and I are totally going to get the apartment we want, i just know it!! As long as it is still cheap, of course. I'm a little bit depressed. Have been more or less this afternoon, an...

I've been pretty nasty these past few days on here, and I feel bad because it's pretty out of character for me. I try to stay away from political issues on this because my ineloquent language tends to get me into trouble (that doesn't explain these past few days, these past few days I've just been an asshole clear and simple). My eyes were closed in pain and I forgot to open them and realize the rest of the world has their own pains, too. At least as far as I guess. Does anyone know someone w...

Being an angry and bitter person usually takes up most of my time. I know I'm angry and bitter and I embrace it. I know I push people away and luckily I have friends who are understanding of that and have experienced it, and they put up with it. I'm lucky I have friends that put up with it. Most people will allow me to push them away. I wonder who I appreciate more... the people who don't understand what I'm trying to do and therefore don't resist, or the people who know what I'm doing an...

I'm going to write another intelligent hate blog for everyone to comment on. Hahahaha that was really funny for me I wonder if people will respond to this, as I had no idea any one would to my last. Maybe I should throw out some words like fuck, and shit, and damn fat heads so that people will think I'm trying to intelligently argue for my own politcal party. If I say I'm a feminist, how are people going to react? "Women aren't discriminated against anymore today. Your fight is over....

I'm young, I'm a female, I'm a minority, I'm not a Christian, and I have gay friends. I've been raped, I've been discriminated against racially, and I've been treated like shit for being a woman. Of course I'm a flaming liberal, how couldn't I be? And I also don't understand how anyone cannot be. How can you think that anyone has the right to make a decision for an entire group of people without giving them any say at all? How can you say that gay marriage should be illegal until after ...

Lol, I have to laugh at my title. I have decided today that I am JoeUser's least-read blogger, and I've also decided that that deserves some sort of recognition, so there it is! Were this a prestigious award, my acceptance speech would go something like: "dear non-friends and non-enemies who have awarded me with the distinguished title of 'JoeUser's Most Unread Blogger', I am quite proud of my achievements and completely intend on keeping on doing what I've been doing all along... I...

Unfolding enveloping missiles of soul Recall senses sadly Mirage like soft blue like lanterns below To light the way gladly Whether whistling heaven's clouds disappear Where the wind withers memory Whether whiteness whisks soft shadows away Feel flows (White hot glistening shadowy flows) Feel goes (Black hot glistening shadowy flows) Unbending never ending tablets of time Record all the yearning Unfearing all appearing message divine Eases the burning Whether willing witness w...

A friend of mine and I are talking right now. I am near tears. I can't really explain it. I'm being ridiculously honest with him. He's liked me forever. I don't know what my problem is. I guess I am just reaching out, and wanting to, but not knowing how. Well, it's late, I'm sure everyone is tired... ~A.

I realized tonight that the Beach Boys are a great stoner band. I mean, they just sound so great when you're baked... Particularily the song "Free Flows". I am so serious, nothing has sounded better to my ears while stoned before, except for maybe the really hard industrial beats on that DJ Irene CD when it sounds like a freight train. That blows my mind, too. I guess this means Brian Wilson is a freaking genius, huh. Of course he is. I've been doing the musical genius worshipping these la...

I miss Wesley sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo very much. Soooooo incredibly much! Just had to remark on that. Wherever you are, Wesley, I miss you!

My little bro Charlie is a crank head and I am heart broken. I loved this kid like my own brother, like a best friend, closer than kin. I am literally heart broken. When someone told me what he's on right now my heart just literally smashed into a million and one pieces, and I just want to cry. It makes me feel depressed . It's despicable. I remember what happened to my sister, and I am more emotionally attached to Charlie than my sister, it's true. He's like my beautiful little blond ...

I think that surroundings are essential to all important activities in life. I was looking around outside when I was smoking tonight and everything was visually perfect. They looked just the way they were supposed to at night in the dark in the cold in a little nook between brick buildings. The trees huge and old and the sky a cloudy gray brightened by the street and sidewalk lights. It is only the wind, the trees, the brick, and me. Things so powerful and old, things to be counted on, an...

So in the midst of smoking a oney the horrid fear swept into my vulnerable mind that I'd pretty much "turned into" my ex boyfriend, you know, picking up his bad habits and good habits and pretty much doing with myself what he did, and i was like shit no! And then I began to look about me freakishly and realized, WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING! I mean, seriously, I haven't at all. As I look around my room, I realize with a pleased smile that I haven't turned into anyone at all, not anyone but...

I just got back to Morris from fall break. It was a good weekend home, except my room smells like burned hair even though I didn't burn mine this time. its coming from outside I got stoned like HELL this weekend, specially last night before Mandi's car DIED and we had to walk in very cool weather at night stoned as hell and avoid all cars but her boyfriend's. So today Mandi and I and her mom went to check out another car that I hope she gets. It's a cool car! I haven't really unp...