Being an angry and bitter person usually takes up most of my time. I know I'm angry and bitter and I embrace it. I know I push people away and luckily I have friends who are understanding of that and have experienced it, and they put up with it. I'm lucky I have friends that put up with it. Most people will allow me to push them away. I wonder who I appreciate more... the people who don't understand what I'm trying to do and therefore don't resist, or the people who know what I'm doing an...

I'm going to write another intelligent hate blog for everyone to comment on. Hahahaha that was really funny for me I wonder if people will respond to this, as I had no idea any one would to my last. Maybe I should throw out some words like fuck, and shit, and damn fat heads so that people will think I'm trying to intelligently argue for my own politcal party. If I say I'm a feminist, how are people going to react? "Women aren't discriminated against anymore today. Your fight is over....

I'm young, I'm a female, I'm a minority, I'm not a Christian, and I have gay friends. I've been raped, I've been discriminated against racially, and I've been treated like shit for being a woman. Of course I'm a flaming liberal, how couldn't I be? And I also don't understand how anyone cannot be. How can you think that anyone has the right to make a decision for an entire group of people without giving them any say at all? How can you say that gay marriage should be illegal until after ...

Lol, I have to laugh at my title. I have decided today that I am JoeUser's least-read blogger, and I've also decided that that deserves some sort of recognition, so there it is! Were this a prestigious award, my acceptance speech would go something like: "dear non-friends and non-enemies who have awarded me with the distinguished title of 'JoeUser's Most Unread Blogger', I am quite proud of my achievements and completely intend on keeping on doing what I've been doing all along... I...

A friend of mine and I are talking right now. I am near tears. I can't really explain it. I'm being ridiculously honest with him. He's liked me forever. I don't know what my problem is. I guess I am just reaching out, and wanting to, but not knowing how. Well, it's late, I'm sure everyone is tired... ~A.

I realized tonight that the Beach Boys are a great stoner band. I mean, they just sound so great when you're baked... Particularily the song "Free Flows". I am so serious, nothing has sounded better to my ears while stoned before, except for maybe the really hard industrial beats on that DJ Irene CD when it sounds like a freight train. That blows my mind, too. I guess this means Brian Wilson is a freaking genius, huh. Of course he is. I've been doing the musical genius worshipping these la...

I miss Wesley sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo very much. Soooooo incredibly much! Just had to remark on that. Wherever you are, Wesley, I miss you!

I had a pretty good weekend. I left this morning with the sunrise. I haven't seen the sunrise in a few years now and it's pretty much the only thing I miss about big time partying. I guess I miss that about dating too. Joe spent the night Friday night. Nothing to report, i probably snored or something totally embarrassing like that. He's a good guy. I'm considering another guy that I have already been interested in for a few weeks now, and I'm pretty sure he's interested in me. I ha...

I know that if I can just make it through these next few days, everything will be all right. I know that. I also know these next few days are going to be sooooooo hella hard, and I know that because these last few days have been so unimaginably hard. I was able to get through them because I thought they were going to be the last, I kept telling myself, "it's okay if you only have one bag of popcorn left, and only one bottle of water left, you're getting money on monday, so it's okay. You'll g...

I'm so sad and I can't stop crying. I'm sooo broke and there's nothing I can do about it. I mean, up until now I've at least had change so I could do my laundry when I need to. I don't have any food except dried noodles for soup, salad dressing and salad topping stuff. I don't have any water, and the Morris water gives me diarrhea since I'm not used to it so I cant drink it or else I'll get sick... I only have seventy five cents to my name, that's all the money I have except for a few penn...

I never remembered crap about my childhood before, just the HUGE events. Christ, I can barely remember any of my friends throughout all of elementary and middle school. But this music is bringing it all back, and it's all coming so strong it's like flashbacks. I'm getting a rush of adrenaline from remembering. THIS IS AWESOME!!!! I REMEMBER MY YOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Things are really changing around here, in my life. A lot of things are happening. I've been changing, changing, changing and everything is in the process right now. I know that things are changing, I can feel it, I can see it. I'm not sure, but it might be wonderful. "Was it come as a surprise to think that I was so naive? Maybe didn't mean that much but it meant everything to me." It's weird. I've made my way back to my roots and I almost feel like I've reached a balance. Or I'm tryi...

I've got a good feeling in my stomach. I'm looking at things like they haven't been seen in ages. But I'm lonely, lonely, lonely, looking for a little romance... Looking for a little love... It's the perfect time of year and I'm seeing it with these new eyes. But it is so beautiful to me, everything is so beautiful to me, and I hate that I don't get enough time to see it, to feel it, to taste it, to touch it, and I need to. I hate that I am trapped in a schedule and I can't wai...

I am without love, but not in the whole sense... Just that one love that everyone parades around and brags about and is just all cutesy and shit about. I have friends and family and all of that stuff, and sure they care about me, but there's this big gaping hole in me that had been filled for so long, and now I feel like I've finally emptied it, and it sucks, you know? When there isn't someone you're constantly pining over, thinking about, caring about, loving, you know, that BS. I guess in...

Don't you feel like that sometimes? I do. So tonight a friend from my hometown (who moved fairly near where I go to school) called me tonight, and we're talking, and then she mentions something about someone saying that I picked up a really bad drug habit, or something along those lines, like, hard drug habit or what was it, that I'm really into hard drugs right now and I'm like, uh, what? It was a funny thought first of all because where I was at the time was a Christian coffee shop wh...