I'm so sad and I can't stop crying.
I'm sooo broke and there's nothing I can do about it. I mean, up until now I've at least had change so I could do my laundry when I need to. I don't have any food except dried noodles for soup, salad dressing and salad topping stuff. I don't have any water, and the Morris water gives me diarrhea since I'm not used to it so I cant drink it or else I'll get sick... I only have seventy five cents to my name, that's all the money I have except for a few pennies on my floor and my car gas tank is on empty.
I don't have anything!! i have ten "free" meals a week but I even owe money to the school since my financial aid didnt go through. There are seven days in a week, and I can eat ten times in those seven days. Otherwise I have no other way of eating. I don't even have enough tobacco to suppress my hunger.
I'm so broke that I just want to die.
There is no way that I can be healthy or even eat anything whatsoever. I can't eat food service!! The only thing I WILL eat there is lettuce, otherwise I'm stuck with greasy crappy hamburgers and french fries, or else some totally disgusting thing that I WILL NOT EAT. I just won't do it! I can't. I don't even know what to do anymore. This sucks so much.
I found another quarter...
I don't even have nickels and dimes because I thought that I would be getting my check, but now it won't even matter if I get my check because I will either be working, in class, or sleeping, and the gorcery store closes at 9 pm, and anyways its a rip and I need to go to Walmart to get deodorant, and shampoo and conditioner and that means I have to go to Alexandria and I literally cannot go to Alexandria until Saturday, assuming I even GET MY STUPID CHECK THIS WEEK!!! And three nights for dinner this week, i wont be able to eat because I'll be working and how can I buy food from McDonalds if I don't have any money to buy it with??? even if i wanted to eat I couldn't. I can't go to food service because I'll be working and I can't eat at work because I don't have any money and I don't have any food!!!!!
And then there's the fact that I'm working over twenty hours this week and I can't AFFORD to work twenty hours because then my homework goes down the shitter and with that my grades and if I don't have good grades, then WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE???
Oh and I'm supposed to pull an eight hour shift at work on Sunday... from 8 to four... how in the hell am i going to work EIGHT HOURS WITHOUT ANY FUCKING FOOD???!!!!!!!!! I DONT EVEN GET AN OPPORTUNITY TO EAT FUCKING BREAKFAST.
My life is not even worth living right now.
I dont even know how I'm going to be able to manage to make it through these next days without any food or drink.
WHAT IN THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????
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???????????????????????????????????????????????? I'm so screwed, I just don't even want to ATTEMPT to live anymore. I just don't even want to try. I can't do it anymore.