This weekend, I picked up a big bridal magazine. No, it's not what you think it is. I'm NOT getting married. Rather, I love to paint and draw, and I get my best (and most beautiful) subjects from wedding and prom magazines. I've been doing this for years (since 8th grade, at least, and before that, I used to use my sister's Vanity Fair to find inspiration, since it had so many ads).

This is the second time I've bought a wedding magazine in the past year. (The last time was a heart break; I was actually able to buy them for the real reason, but unfortunately, it turned out to be all disappointing talk. Damn it!) I've been looking at the pictures, marking pages I would like to draw, when I discovered that the pages I marked not only challenged my talent, but also represented my dream wedding gown. I began marking not only wedding dresses, but bridesmaid dresses I would like to see in my wedding. I started looking to see what cities the stores were located in. I started reading the articles!!!!!

I must clearly state that I DO NOT have a fiance, or boyfriend. I also don't have anyone in mind that I am planning my fantasy wedding around. To me, it's more like prom is for middle schoolers: this big dream of beautiful dresses, hair, makeup, dancing into the night with someone special, but also having everyone's attention on you, being admired completely, getting awesome gifts, and going on a vaction to amazing locations you would never be able to visit any other time. It's a real life fairy tale.

Which brings me to MY wedding. I've already decided a bit about it. It's going to be HUGE, for one. I don't want to leave anyone out. I also want about a gazillion bridesmaids... Okay, not a gazillion, but I want my sister to be in it, and Rachel, April?, Dana from Morris, Shannon, Jessica, and if my husband has any sisters, them of course, also. Oh God, and Rebecca, too; she was my first big best friend in ML, and I always said I want her in my wedding.

I haven't decided on the location, but I definitely want to get married in either April or May. The reasoning behind this is A, I love spring, and B, I want the first week of my honeymoon to be spent in a resort, lodge, whatever, where we have a fireplace in the room. And I want to be able to use it without the room being completely stuffy and unbearable. Oooh a good place for this would be a castle or something in Scotlandor Ireland. Sounds lovely!! The second half of my honeymoon will be spent on some hot, exotic island. I haven't decided. Bora Bora? Tahiti? Jeez! I don't know!

My wedding dress, of course, will be a big fairy princess ball gown. I look best in them, with my huge butt. (Heehee) I want it to have lots and lots of tulle and all that great stuff! And most importantly, I want it to completely cover my feet, because I will NOT wear icky shoes. I am going to wear slippers, NO MATTER WHAT. I am also going to grow my hair out as long as I can, and it will be all gorgeously curled and stuff. The prettiest hairstyles to me are only possible with really long hair. And I don't know if I'll be able to afford extensions, so I'm not taking that risk!! I don't want a tiara or anything, since I've already been through that special feeling... What with Miss Moose Lake and all that. Anyway. I want my bridesmaids to wear a ball gown style dress, too, but I'm thinking maybe different pastel colors for each one, since it's spring. And I want the flower girl, who very well could be Rebecca's baby if I get married in the next 7 years, to wear a replica of my dress. Like a mini version, with a little less tulle and train, wouldn't that be sooo cute?

Oh God this is getting a little bit cheesy for me.

Anyway, that's what I've come up with in the last 24 hours, while inadvertently planning my hopeful, someday wedding, if I'm able to beat my odds and succeed in more than one relationship that lasts longer than two months!! Ahh!!!