Sometimes, it happens to some people, that they tend to care too much about people who might not deserve it. And of course, all parties involved realize it, and it's a sad thing, but forgiveness is always on their lips either way.

I wish I was one of those people who could automatically press the block button in their minds, you know, say, "I don't want to care about that person anymore, so I'm going to block them." A simple idea, of course, kind of like turning them off with a TV remote. I wish that worked, too!!

But all the same, here I am, honestly caring. I know a lot of people think I'm incapable of doing so, and GOD I WISH IT WERE TRUE!

As it's all confusing, I also wish I could hit the internal power button, too. Just snooze for a few good hours for the first time in a while.

And I wish I weren't feeling all this so soon before my birthday, that disappointing day that it is. This year, I have no one from home to comfort me here. But who would comfort me now, anyway? So many things have happened to change everything about everyone.

And yet I still care. Why? It's not love, I don't think. Maybe just... sadness. That infinite sadness, the one that makes you want to change the world, and yet all it really does is makes you smile, that really sad half smirk of an expression. The smile that makes you want to cry.

I can see where this is going. Tears will fall, hearts will break. Love's a game we all must play, so dry your eyes and be on your way. As for me... I'll be alone. I know it's not the lyrics to the song. But it's my end, all the same!

I really think I was created to make others happy. I know I'm not too good at my game, but my heart breaks when I see the effects of my carelessness.

All I know is, I want to change the world, and it seems an effort to change my socks. Haha I love my sardonic sense of humor.

Happy early birthday, huh?