Guess who's smoking her steamroller again!! I found my lighter, too, in a drawer. Strange i put it there... Oh well, not much of what I do makes sense! Jesus, sometimes i feel so pretty! Lonely, too. It's okay, the weed is currently doing for me what i need. Okay, so it doesn't give me sexual pleasure, but it makes me forget about needing some. Shit! I was just smoking with my retainers in. That means they're gonna taste like weed smoke for at least three days. AUGH! I hate when i do that!!! Luckily, it hasn't been for a while, but it's so gross. It makes my breath nasty and smoky. I think I'm dependent on weed. No, that's not right. I don't do weed because I need it. I do it because it makes me feel cool. I get so damn inspired when i'm stoned. I can never write anything good when I'm sober, because I just don't think about cool things. They just don't come to my mind. This music stoned is blowing my buzz. Better get some D12, i need that shit. It's been a while since i reefed out like this shit, like i used to do at home. HOLY MOTHER SHIT! I FUCKING PUT MY REALPLAYER ON AND IT IMMEDIATELY STARTED PLAYING SUBLIME'S GARDEN GROVE!!! One of my all time favorite STONED SONGS!! Don't fuck around with my dogs "music from jamaica all the love that i found" Its you its that shit stuck under my shoe Sitting through a shitty band Stickin needles in your arm feeling depressed every day saying im happy when im not FINDING ROACHES IN THE POT good good good. I feel the same way. Except i'm not on heroin, never tried it, hopefully never will conquer my fear of needles to do so. I just swalllowed spit. I wish i was outside, then i could puke up that nasty spit i just swallowed. I wish people would read this shit, it's good, and i want them to tell me what they think of my self! YAY D12!! ONE OF THE STAPLES OF MY SUMMER DIET!!! AHAHAHAHA! Wow this is so great. I'm fucking tripping to D FUCKING 12!! I love the dirty dozen. They're so good for angry druggies. "IT AINT NOTHING BUT MUSIC" that's what Em says... Lol just being a dumbass. I love to listen to this stoned, it makes me feel like a teenage rock star like i was last summer. Shit man money wa'n't nuthin but a thing, y'all. Shit man y'all i don't know what to say. Shit man i'm sorry. It's all like, my mind all went, and shit. That's how bloggers get fudd up. Can't fuckin listen to this song no more. It was startin to "BLOW MY BUZZ." how do you get people to read this thing? I wish i could like, uh... promote this with a stoned song and dance. I love this song, it makes me laugh because it's totally like me. One part, at least. Shit man remember when moses was sitting in the back of... my car, and he was singing the Bizarre part in the back, and i was soooo stoned, and we went over two speed bumps to the song, and it was hilarious. We were all so stoned. Shit man, that was great. One of the best stoned moments of the summer. ONE of them, not THE one. The best stoned moment HAD to be when Amber and i were rollin to wright, and we got there and parked the car, but fuckin we had no water. So we had to fuckin use BEER to smoke a bong. I felt fucking awesome. It seriously IS the coolest thing I HAVE EVER DONE IN ALL MY LIFE. I fucking ROCK!!! LAST SUMMER I WAS THE FUCKIN COOLEST, MAN! I was the fuckin SHIT. I fucking ROCKED. I fuckin partied like a rock star at all the fucking coolest parties in town. Sure some of em were really fucking wild, but they were worth it. I fuckin ruled the world, for a summer. I don't think i didn't get ONE thing i didn't want, last summer. And trust me, i got it all, and then some more. I don't know one thing i didn't get last summer, and i honestly can't. I got to do what i wanted. I got who i wanted where i wanted them (not just sexually.) I was the SHIT last summer. I don't know one hot ass party i didn't show up at. Hella cool! I can only fuckin hope next summer's parties are as wild as these ones were!! There was the weed in my mom's jeep, fuckin letting people drive my car home so my parents would assume i got there at curfew, when i would stay out til four in the morning. Fuckin bonfires, kegs, beer and Razz and tequila up the wazoo, sex, guys, guys guys. Life was fucking amazing. I'm starting to sound like the person i used to be. I'm gonna be her again, soon, damn it!! I'm gonna break out of this SHELL IM GONNA POUND THE WALLS DOWN AND DAMN IT I'M GOING TO FEEL LIKE I DID LAST SUMMER, GOOD! I am going to be the SHIT again next summer. Weed, money, sex, alcohol, weed, alcohol alcohol alcohol. Don't you fret, ladies and gentlemen, I am going to be the THING again. Wow, did i miss it. Wow do i miss it. Well, now i'm going back, and will be again. One of these days i'm gonna get a tattoo. Oh no! I hope not. They say this is the city of angels all i see is dead wings. This is the city of angels, but all i see is dead wings. Aint no decency in being boxed up alive. Look around aint no R.I.P. signs here. We dont rest in peace. We just disappear Well that is Morris. Okay well supposedly that song is about Los Angeles, but i really think it means Morris. The Distillers dont REALLY know, until they come to Morris. Haha they would never come here. It's too far away. I'm singing, loud. i had better stop!! Hehe I don't probably sound so good. My retainers dont taste bad, but it could be because my stoned taste buds like the taste of weed smoke. Hmm, i just tried to clean the rez off my bowl and my lighter flame exploded on my hand That gave me a heart attack, so i decided i should put it down for a moment, then maybe try it again. I don't like little explosions. I did it again, but i realized its the lighter fluid exploding. So i will be more careful now. Yay obsidian little rez balls. Beautiful as Rachel would say. Or did say. It hurts my throat and tastes bad but makes me more stoned. Without extra pay. This is great. Well I better go, i bet I've written a lot in my hour of stoned ranting. Well it wasn't an hour, but still!