I just pulled an all nighter with a almost complete stranger. I've met him once before, for about two minutes, and that's all. Do you have any idea how hard it is to pull an all nighter with someone you're unfamiliar with? That's just something you don't do, you know? How can you handle being with someone for almost TWELVE STRAIGHT HOURS! when you don't know anything about them? What about the awkward silences? Running out of things to talk about? No sexual anything!
Well I'll tell you one thing...
I did it. We discovered fairly early on that we're both totally comfortable being stoned in someone's presence and yet also be able to do our own things, so there passed about... god an hour of near silence just with him painting and me doodling. Of course, don't get me wrong, Doodling is one of the most important things that I do. I love it very much and I could doodle for HOURS without getting TOO bored, provided I have enough colors. So it was cool, it really worked out, that we could just be like, whatever and still hang out. I know that sounds weird, but thats how it is with Mandi and me, too. We just get comfortable in each others presense and dont worry about always having to talk. We got to know each other pretty quickly, what with smoking weed... There was no end of convo filler either, and it was GOOD filler that I really was interested to hear. Moses and Philip will be SOOO rewarded they don't even KNOW!!! I can't even comprehend where this school year is going... ANY WHERE I WANT IT TO.
I mean literally this school year could kill me. Y'all don't even know. I could die because of the decisions I make this semester. Isn't that INSANE??? I mean, it's sooo likely that i could fuck myself up so incomprehensibly and irreparably this semester, even, or I could even die. Wow, isn't that so amazing to realize? In an awe-ful way.
So I met a cool guy... I think? I mean I HAVE been up since 7:00 yesterday AM and it's 7:36 am the NEXT DAY, okay?
So who knows. But how can you be uncomfortable around someone you've pretty much passed through every awkward friendship moment/conversation possible? Well, the majority at least. Things guys and girls dont talk about... Things I dont talk about, things he doesn't talk about.
Wonder if I'll like him when the weed wears off and I have sane thinking? Wonder if he'd like me?
Bah. what matters now is sleep, though i figured i could spare an extra half hour to write a blog... i mean, whats another half hour when you've already gone TWENTY FOUR???? But I can tell i need the sleep, i'm half delirious. Which is in itself very interesting.
I wish I could call Moses and tell him the GREAT news. He has no idea how much his life is going to change in the most amazing way possible.
Good night---
Tweeker on A HALF A PACK OF CIGARETTES IN 10 HOURS, 20+ oz of coffee, a shit load of good weed, captain morgan and a shot of Jose to keep it all down. Plus only one meal in 24 hours and it wasn't big!!!