Anne,
you are afraid. Simple as that. And no one can answer your questions except Philip. You need to overcome your fear and talk to him. If you are sure you want to be him then tell him. He either feels the same way or not. At least get your feelings into the open and find out whether you have a chance at a relationship. There is no point in worrying about it as it won't help you at all and just leave you upset. Go talk to him.

Paul.

Thanks Paul, you're being very helpful.

I suppose I'll have to overcome my fear and talk to him... I just don't know how to go about it.

A little time and a LOT of thought is all I need

~Anne

"So afraid to love you, more afraid to lose, clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose"
~Sarah Mclachlan(I will remember you)

Those are good lyrics... good song, eh?

Well, let's look at this objectively. If you talk to him the worst that will happen is that he'll reject you and that's where it's at now, right? Best case senerio is that he'll tell you he feels the same way about you, eh? So, really, can it get worse? Yeah, get up the courage to talk to him. You said you were so nasty to him (in "Fighting my feelings") and that you didn't know why. Not that I know the situation, but maybe he thinks you still feel that way. Have you let him know that you're sorry and what not? Rejection is a huge blow, and maybe he still thinks you feel that way.

Is it just me or are articles getting less and less comments?

I hope everything works out for ya, Anne. If all else fails show him the beautiful poem you wrote, or maybe play hard to get? Or would that not work in this case? It'll all turn out okay, just hang in there!

Sarah

It's easy for me to preach Anne, but it's so hard to follow that advice.

There have been a number of times when I've been falling in love with a close friend but been completely unable to talk to them about it, for fear of their reaction. Not fear of them not wanting to take the friendship further, but fear of losing the wonderful thing I already had. In my experience though the earlier these things are discussed the better. I once went a whole year without telling one of my closest friends that I was in love with her. We were spending over 3 days a week together and I loved being with her. I hinted I liked her and she hinted that she wasn't interested in a relationship with anyone but I just couldn't bring myself to talk to her honestly. One night while dancing together in a nightclub she just snogged some stranger who walked past and I got very upset. It forced the two of us to talk. We didn't get together, and it took a few months before we were totally back to normal, but we're still close friends to this day. If I had talked to her earlier I wouldn't even have lost the few months.

Do talk to Philip.

Paul.

The primary problem here is you:

Deep down inside I admit the truth
I could never move on past you.

You're too negative, continually putting yourself down--accentuate the positive!