Gone To Look For America, Part 2

Published on April 26, 2004 By Tangled Wishes In Blogging

This is the second part of my "desperation blog" (AKA I'm Running Away).

This is the questions and the answers, hopefully.

Where will I go?

I don't know. I know that I cannot go home. And home is more than just lil ol' Moose Lake... Home is Duluth, Cloquet, Cromwell (especially). These are the places that I cannot go, the places that I must leave behind me in order to get ahead.

So where shall I go? Who knows.

And how am I going to do it?

I can't do it without money, that's for sure. I might have to stay in Moose Lake long enough to make a big chunk of money and get the hell out of there. I might have to work at DQ, and Gampers, as much as I can, if not all the time, until I've got enough money to transport me from my own hell.

I'd rather do my damnedest to get the hell out of there immediately and see if I can find a place to live (with family or friends who are far, far away from ML?) and work. I've got an uncle in Florida, maybe I'll be able to convince them to let me live AND WORK there for the summer. Lol my iTunes just started playing Jimi Hendrix' Freedom.

I've also got an uncle in Grand Rapids. It sure isn't far enough away from lil ol' ML but if that's as far as I can get... I'll take it.

Otherwise, yours truly is going to be spending all of May and June and probably some of July to earn enough money to get the fuck out of Northern Minnesota and drive where ever the fuck I please. Maybe I'll see New Orleans, I've always wanted to. Maybe I'll hit the East Coast, Maine, New York, etc. Maybe I'll head for Washington and California. I've never been there,either. Christ, I wouldn't care if I only made it to Nebraska, as long as it isn't Moose Lake.

Can you see the desperation oozing out of the computer screen? It's getting all over my keyboard and hands. (Heehee, I'm still capable of sarcasm)

I'll live outta my car if I have to, but preferably I'll have a lil ol' tent and a sleeping bag so I can set camp at campgrounds, but if I'm running just a little low on funds (or want to keep my funds up) I'm okay with sleeping in a Walmart parking lot. It won't embarrass me!!! Jesus, we've all got to live somehow, right?

I don't know how it's all going to work out yet, but it doesn't scare me. Maybe I'll be stuck in hell until July. Maybe I'll get out of ML in the middle of May, who knows?

I've already got a car/road trip/life experience soundtrack all picked out... It's filled with Simon and Garfunkel, Jimi Hendrix, Led Zeppelin, Janis Joplin. That's my summer playlist.

I bet you're wondering what in the hell could have even made me want to do any of this? Well, I'm guilty of having watched Almost Famous tonight. And I think I've listened to Simon and Garfunkel's "America" about six times. That will do it to a person. That will give you the drive, the desperation, the loathing of your life that you just NEED to get the hell out of it. And it's done it to me.

In fact, I can even go as far as to say that it's changed my life. One Sunday night in a dorm room eating potato chips and yogurt and listening to old music can make you hate your existence so much that you must change it. And I figure if people around me are doing what they can to change their lives and accomplish their dreams, then I can do it too.

Of course, I don't have any dreams in mind right now... I'll have to make them as I go along, from county to county and state to state.

I've also decided, even though I've wasted seven pages of printer paper, that I'm going to play "America" in Lit on Tuesday.

I've decided to change my life, I suppose it's acceptable for me to change my mind, too.

~Anne

Comments

Solitair

on Apr 26, 2004

Anne,
I've spent 2 summers in the US. You don't need that much money to start. 1 summer I spent in San Francisco working in Nike world, and the other I spend in virginia working at a beach resort. In both cases i went over with very little money (mainly borrowed) worked hard for most of the summer and thn took 3-4 weeks exploring time. Most tourist spots look of rhundreds if not thousands of student workers every summer. Life is much easier if you have a friend or two to share with as it makes accomodation cheaper and gives you people to help support costs.

Good luck with whereever you decide on,

Paul.

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