I am headed for a complete emotional collapse. I mean it. It's imminent.
I don't know how much longer I can deal with all of this surrounding me. I mean, it would be better if I could turn my head off for a while to not think about Matt, but there he is all over the TV, newspapers, everyone's SNs, and I really can't. And then there's the bitch... Years and years of physical and emotional mistreatment... That don't get wiped away like that... There was never any love. She was never nice to me until she left the house, and that was all bullshit because she stole my stuff. She knows the stuff to fucking break you down. She knows what to say. Even when it isn't true.
You could never find a foe that could think of worse things to say than my sister. Never. She could think of anything worse than anyone you would ever know. And would say them, over and over and over again. She's fucking sociopathic. And not medicated.
I know the grass isn't greener on the other side. But at least there IS grass on the other side... none of that fucking wore-torn land I'm dying in now... Find me someone worse than my sister. Please. And then I will lock her in a room with them. And she will feel it too.
I will kill her. Really. If she's not gone tomorrow I will kill her. I cannot live with her any longer. If she's not out tomorrow, it's either her or me. I'm not kidding.
I will fucking explode. I'll kill her or myself, there's no joke. She's fucking worse than fucking DAMIEN. Damien would be scared of her. I hate her. I'm really gonna snap... Just wait. Just wait.
~Heading for a mental destruction.
Wish I could forget everything now.
Sorry I ever felt sorry for her. She dont fucking care. Psycho.