I suffer from the title problem. I know in normal person speak it's referred to as lazy, but it's like a fricking condition, man. You think I don't want to be motivated?? My God I would love it!!!!
Unfortunately I have that problem.
I can't even decide what I would rather call it. Motivationally challenged seems to be... outdated. Motivationally Disabled sounds very serious, as it is, of course. But still... I've been calling it "motivationally challenged" for like two or three weeks. I just don't know if I'm willing to make a change. What if it makes people think I'm inconsistent?
(Note, if you get bored from this point on, you don't need to read it all. The end is me just kinda sharing diet tips and blabbing. Tell me what I should call my "condition"!!!)
Anyhow, I'm feeling "motivationally whatever" right now. I'm supposed to do Pilates at some freaking point and time but I just can't freakin' do it!! I mean, I don't have enough time now before dinner, but I DID have enough time a half hour ago. Why didn't I just do it??? I'm definitely not stopping doing Pilates. I love what it's doing to my body. I'm also not stopping dieting. It's very healthy for me and a good idea and besides I don't even have any freaking junk food that I could eat if I wanted to.
So I was reading this article in Vogue where a lady who lost significant weight (like 35 pounds, I believe) with her workout plan, and her personal trainer gave her a tip on how to eat less. He told her to eat an apple before every meal, because it will make you eat 25% less of said meal. It fills you up. And it's healthy!!!!
Of course, the weight-obsesser in me totally picked up on that!! So I've decided to give that a try, and that's why I have a bad taste in my mouth. (God damn apple crap!!!) I really wish he would have said oranges. I could do that. I normally eat at least one orange a day anyway. It wouldn't kill me to eat three!! I would enjoy it greatly. I just don't fucking like apples sometimes. I just ate a really shitty, not ripe apple but it was all I had so I had to. I have an iron-hard resolve for losing weight. It's almost summer and I NEED to be great in a swimsuit.
But right now, I'm just motivationally disabled.
I'll do the damn pilates later.
~Anne!